I don't blog, I write

You would be surprised at how right a mother can get. From the very beginning, my mother would tell me that friends can be temporary but family is forever. You think about it, (in most cases) it is very true. But i thought my friends would stay forever. Just like family!

My mother knows about my sins, my ugly side, my dark times. She keeps them confidential between her and I, in order to protect me from shame. She may scream, she may shout. Angry, sad, disappointed ; she is always ready to help me. She talks to me, listens to me and I am forever grateful.

Now recently my friends have seen the worst of me. Friends i would consider family. Safe to say (from witnessing behaviors) my friends are not family. Safe to say i don't feel protected or helped. But for all the evil things I've done, do i deserve help? Everybody needs help therefore everybody deserves help.

SHIT

 PEOPLE READ  MY CRAP NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Well in other news. My cats are so lovely and cute.
Lenin is adorable as ever but always smells of poo
The cutecings are cute but noisy

FU

wat


Sup guys i just murdered a chilis burger.
No remorse
Mercy
Guys. I got a gig on the 5th of november.
It be cool if could make it.
Alright. getting off now. GGOODNIGHT

Times they are a-changin'

Hello readers who don't exist.
What do you guys live for?
What do you guys look forward to in life?
Long term? Short term?
A great wife and beautiful kids? or going out to a party tonight?
Whenever i think about this, my system just shuts down and i go brain dead.
I think too much.

Lame post wtv goodbye fagss

It happens

I remember the times when azalea was in love with me. Nothing really could stop us. Remembering our first year of our relationship always brings me to tears. Seeing what it has become too. I'm hitting myself over my head day and night. Losing control of my feelings and emotions, my behavior seems rather erratic (kinda scary and uncomfortable) and i really don't like this. I just pray for me to feel happy regardless of the situation but for now i only choose to see that i'll only be happy with azalea.

BUT THAT STINKS RIGHT?

WHY SHOULD I FEEL HAPPY ABOUT IT? AZALEA DOES NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME DOES SHE?
It will all seem pretty fake. Things will hardly become what they used to be. The best days are gone and all i can do is reminisce the past and try my fucking best to move on.
I never wanted any of this.


really fucked up going nuts right now

Just when

Just when everything is at it's worse, it gets worse.

It was the longest night of my life.

Every night i'm at the mosque surrendering myself to god and asking for his guidance
today he made me take a good look on my life so far
things have been great but very much crap
i regret nothing but i regret almost everything
if things haven't disappeared yet, they are slipping away.
i feel uncontrollably uncomfortable with where i'm standing now.
geez.


I hate blogging. No one probably wants to read my shit as i rant about how down and out i am. and it's hard to spontaneously start blogging about good stuff because none of it is on my mind!

freakin hell i think i'm going to play dragon age now

hello again!

hello again!

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How is errrbody?!
I bet you 100%  no one will read this in a span of 48 hours.
Last time i blogged was a year ago.
lolololololol
Anyways, if anybody is reading this, imma talk about bersih rally.
 Its gon be a rap.

So listen up ya
I see the F.R.U trynna get real cool
with em muthz****in cuffs and some canisters too
What cannisstersss???!!!!
tear gas bitch it aint sweet
it's like peri on your face that aint neat
for a good 20 minutes you feel like a prophet in the rain
but you here em gunshots and you're just the rakyat in pain
it aint fun
it's damn fun
you realize for a second whats been done.
hidup hidup rakyat is all being said
we won't stop till everyone of us is dead


In case everybody is wondering, i'm trollin.

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Alright, bai